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| Just a Quickie |
[02 Mar 2011|11:22pm] |
On February 28, 2011 at 3pm...Ethan Valentine Sparks was born. Baby is happy and healthy and so is the rest of the family.
On a personal note...OH DEAR GOD...C-SECTION BEST THING EVER!
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[29 Jan 2011|01:10am] |
Josh is evil...and completely wonderful at the same time! I have been very anti-nursery stuff for this baby mainly because I just don't see the point. All our kids are little and I just figured that when this little boy got older he could share a room with Ian cause I dunno I thought they would like it.
Apparently Ian and Josh had other plans. Yes Papa and Nana Sparks descended upon me and the kids this morning because apparently Josh and Ian have been picking out baby nursery stuff. So, Papa helped us clean out the guest room and he then took the kids to get the furniture and me and Mama painted.
Lessons I learned today...Josh's mother is a control freak! I love her to death, but God she stresses me out! Lesson two, Josh's father cannot go shopping with the kids...because he can't say no! They bought the baby a little kid train table....like he needs it just yet? Lilly got a princess bed. I mean I know she is three and still has a crib...but sigh and he even bought Ian a little recliner. The kids aren't spoiled at all.
Anyway, it was all really amazing and fun and now the little baby has a room of his own and Ian doesn't have to worry about him not having a place to stay apparently.
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| I CAN'T SLEEP AND IT'S MAKING ME CRANKY! |
[09 Dec 2010|02:27am] |
Josh snores! I don't care what line he feeds everyone else...he snores loud enough at times to wake the dead and apparently only me and Lilly are bothered by this. I mean my poor little baby came into our room rubbing her little eyes and telling me daddy was too loud. I, of course, woke him up so he could see his snoring was waking up our daughter. Mhmm, he claims that I am just telling fibs about it, but oh no it actually woke up our baby!
We turned on the tv and found some cartoons so Lilly could lay in the bed and watch them with us. Now, Josh is back asleep...snoring...and Lilly and I suffer. I told her to try and push him off the best and bless her little heart but she is pushing on him as hard as she can't but of course he wont move. However, I am about ready to smother him with his own pillow in a moment! Lordie!
You know what is really ironic about all this? I don't think his snoring was this bad until I got pregnant...What kinda connection is that? And why now? I am a lite sleeper, is that what this world needs, an angry, sleep deprived, pregnant woman?!? I don't think so! I mean you haven't seen evil until you see me fat, miserable, and tired!
So Josh when you read this in the morning at work and you are wondering up I dumped your hot coffee in your lap this morning...THIS IS WHY! JERKFACE! GET SOME DAMN BREATH-RIGHT STRIPS OR SOMETHING! DAMN!
He is really lucky I love him...or I would smother him...
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| My sweet lil' man |
[05 Oct 2010|06:36pm] |
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Because of my sweet little man...I have to find another Halloween costume. I didn't really feel like dressing up this year but Ian insisted so I figured for him I could do something. So I found this really cute pregnancy outfit. It's a long sleeve and pants black outfit that has a skeleton on it and on the tummy it has a baby skeleton, I thought it was adorable. Ian on the other hand freaked out when I tried it on today. My poor baby it just not into the scary stuff yet so yes I need another costume...any ideas?
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| all about the little things.... |
[23 Aug 2010|10:53pm] |
You ever have one of those days were you really just feel like you are gonna die?
I have been just feeling nauseated all day and had to keep extra careful watch on my blood sugar cause I was slightly worried I might be letting it get too low. On the plus side of this day the kids were at day care so most of it I just got to stay home and relax. However, all good things must come to an end and they did after I picked up the kids.
Ian has like this sixth sense about people being sick. No matter how well you mask it he always can tell. Being concerned he asked me and I just told him my tummy was upset but that I was fine. Ian gave me this...I-don't-believe-you look...very similar to Josh's look by the same name and it's just equally as annoying. So yes I finally get Ian believe that I am okay enough to help him and Lilly go through their ABC flash card. Now our card have the letter and then an image of something that begins with that letter and life was just dandy until we got to the J card and I saw the jelly. I don't know why but for whatever reason the thought of jelly made me so sick to my stomach I leaped off the couch and dashed to the restroom.
Meanwhile, Ian, who is worried get the phone. Josh and I feel that it's good for Ian to know what to do in case of emergencies and such and he knows to call 911 if there is a fire or someone is passed out and he knows our speed dail numbers. Yes, so he speed dials Josh at work and tells him that Mommy is sick and needs help...he repeats this and then hangs up. Now somewhere in here Lilly either gets the phone and turns is back on or Ian has doubled clicked and they have hanged up the phone and also made it impossible for anyone to call back....this is important to know for later.
I get out of the restroom and tell the kids I am not feeling well let's just give in and put in a cartoon and relax until Josh get's home later that evening. We are halfway through watching Nemo when Josh busts through the front door asking if everyone is okay and how come no ne picked up the phone and were we sure everyone was okay....
Yes you can just imagine how things went from there. So with our phone clicked on and my cell in the car no one could get in touch with anyone and we left Josh in a panic.
Today was just one of those days.
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[04 Aug 2010|03:49pm] |
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Some psychologist say we drift through this life with our subconscious dealing wit a constant onslaught of regret, guilt, and shame. I use to always think that was crap until the other day the words of someone I don't even really know struck a cord with me and my thin little facade came tumbling down. It's amazing the insecurities we cling to....that no matter how amazing your life is before you....it just takes a moment for all those weak thoughts to come rushing back and crush you.
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[02 Aug 2010|11:40pm] |
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I have decided I dislike people.
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[22 Jul 2010|09:41pm] |
 Born in Tennessee and has five brothers (John, Val, Dexter, Wilbur, Barnaby)
Has a twin brother John.
Started out as a stripper and adult film star.
First non-adult movie was the 1994 cult classic Hackers were she first met her current husband Joshua Sparks
Has one child with Sparks Lillian Breeann Sparks
Is a writer of children's books.
Has a cat named Romeo and a dog named Panda.
Is a diabetic.
Loves Chinese food.
Favorite color is blue.
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[12 May 2008|03:28am] |
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So I know that mother's day is a day that we are suppose ot take and reflect on our mothers and grandmothers and the other important women in our lives. I guess I am no different than most when it comes to thinking of them on mother's day. I sat here tonight and reflected back on my memories of my mom and me...I don't have a lot of good memories, actually I couldn't think of any, but I probably wasn't trying all that hard.
I don't know it just relaly got to me. I spent a wonderful day with Josh and the kids and Josh's parents. We all had a great time and of course the present recieved were adorable and perfect and I had one of the best mother's days I have ever had ever. We all had a good time and a wonderful day and it was perfect.
After dinner we headed back home and tucked the kids in bed and I started thinking. When I start thinking bad things usually happen, but this time...no this time it was good. I stood in my daughter's room and I watched her sleep I stood there watching her chest rise and fall before heading into Ian's room and picked up a ew of his toys before re-tucking him into his bed.
I just, you know if you had asked me back in Decemeber if I thought I was going to be spending my first mother's with Lilly and Ian like this...I probably would have laughed. No this was nothing like what I thought I would be doing this is something ten times better...infiantely better. I know this is mother's day and we are supose to be praising mother's and all, but I have a very special man I'd like to thank. I'd like to thank the man who gave me this wonderful family with two of the world's most beautiful children. I want to thank him for giving me more than I could have ever asked for time and time again. The best mother's day presents I could have ever recieved are both asleep tucked into their beds upstairs, and the fact that I got to spend the day with both of them...just thanks. Thank you Josh.
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[09 Apr 2008|09:15pm] |
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So since Josh is out in London and all....meand the kids decided to go shopping and what did we go shopping for...well pets naturally, I mean what else would we buy while dad's away right?
But never fear Josh...WE BOUGHT FISH! Yeah we bought a tank and some little sharks and some pretty colored fish and Ian picked out three snails that he just had to have. I swear it was all Ian's idea. I think these fish ar the best idea we have ever had because once we were home I set Lilly down on front of the tank and her and Ian sat there for I kid you not a good two solid hours before even making a fuss or budging. Oh yes mommy loves fishies.
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[07 Apr 2008|09:12pm] |
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Doctors are evil and my life sucks.
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[07 Apr 2008|12:11am] |
Ugh I hate knowing something needs to be fixed and I can't fix it. Maybe it's just that whole patience thing with me...I like to be in control and when I can't be in control I do something stupid to try and regain that control.
And once again...why can't people ever have awesome realizations about themselves? I always figure out things like I just wrote about above...I mean for once I'd like to have a light blub go off and it be something like...wow I am a really good mom, or wow I'm a careing person.
But now apparently I am just to evil for that...well damn.
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[27 Mar 2008|08:29pm] |
You know what the cutest thing in the world....
You ever seen a kid when he tries to resist sleep and he's bumbling around, nodding on and off, trying his hardest to stay awake...
Want to know what's even cuter than that? Seeing a grown man do the same thing. Yeah it's pretty darn adorable.
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[26 Mar 2008|04:15pm] |
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I don't feel good...I feel all icky and yucky and it's not fair.
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| I HATE MOVIES! |
[04 Mar 2008|01:50pm] |
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Okay apparently I have too much free time out here in London. Josh is filming so it's up to me and the kids to find things to do to busy ourselves. I think we have been doing a pretty fair job of it so far actually. Yes we've been playing dorky tourist here and there just haveing a blast. Today, well today was break day you know we needed a rest from going all over the place. Me and Ian and Lilly all played around before deciding that it was nap time. I put the kids down and for once they were out like lights. I thought to myself, 'oh boy Becca you get some free time you can write some songs.' Only I wasn't in a writting kinda mood so instead I did laundry and watched some western that came on the tv. Yes only I could find a good American Western out here.
Alright to movie was kinda good, long but good...that was until I realized something...the stupid chick in it was me! Ugh, I hate sucky relizations. Like she was so freaken spoiled and self-centered that she relaly didn't realize what an amazingly good thing she had in front of her. I use to always say that about my mother. I never understood how she could be so blind. I mean I think I have come a long way from there, but still it's really something I struggle with. It's restlessness...is that whole getting bored with the everyday. The rally cray part is I always thought I wanted to dull and mundane the everyday, but when I had it it was driving me crazy. I honestly thinking being with Ian and Lilly has tamed me a lot. With the kids I am starting to really see that the everyday can be as exciting as the next. I wake up anxious to see what the day will bring. I am happy to sit in the floor and play batman, cars, a babyzilla with the worlds cutest little boy who shouts about cake while running around singing the batman song, while Lilly giggles and cooes.
By the end of the film the girl is still in the dark about all that she has really lost. She is stuck in her own fantasy world that revolves all around her. That world is really such a sad sufficating place to be, but what's more terriffying is real life...it's all the fears and pains that could bombard a person and cursh their soul deep into the dirt.
I'm glad I decided to step out and take that chance...I've been tossed to the ground a few times, but each time I get up I feel a little stronger, a little braver, a little more prepared for the next go around. And I have two wonderful little angels to thank for it.
Oh, and well I guess perhaps I should thank Josh too. ;-)
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[21 Jan 2008|09:54pm] |
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Ever had a perfect day?
Yeah me either. I've had some damn near close calls. I've had some fucking awesome perfect moments, but never a perfect day and you know I don't really expect to ever have a full perfect day...I think that is what makes my perfect moments even better. They are my own personal little slices of heaven and they make all the rest of this living crap all worth wild. I just wanna thank someone for giving me another perfect moment to add to my list. It was all so very simple, so very ordinary, so very unexpected and perfect. Ice cream in winter and a cuddle under a blanket and bad horror film is all part of the magic formula apparently. Only it was more than just that. It was the words spoken, the teases, the witty jabs, the sincere, and the comical. So yes, thank you half naked scuffy looking homeless guy for a simple perfect evening.
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[18 Jan 2008|09:40pm] |
So...Lillian is here now. Yeah. You'd think as a newer mother I'd be all extra excited but personally....I'm just happy she's finally gotten into some normal kinda sleep routine. Oh and Ian, god he's just freaken adorable. He always wants to cuddle with the baby and kiss the baby and smuther her when she cries...oh yeah things have gotten really interesting around here. Josh's parents have been around a lot more lately, and I'm actually glad of that as well. I kinda thought I'd feel it was intrusive or what not....but I'm glad to have them over and I know the kids love it.
I guess I'll really update when I have something besides kiddies to update on.
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